It is a gray winter day. I sit at my desk determined to work on my blog. So far, I have made 2 cups of tea, browsed Facebook, munched on some almonds, sorted through a stack of mail, ordered some glass paint markers from Amazon, responded to some text messages, and changed the cover photo on my Facebook page.
I read my 2016 January post and realized that I still haven’t started exercising with weights, I never finish reading my current issue of “Dressage Today”, I still have not mastered riding changes every 3 and 4 strides consistently, I don’t think I ever attended one clinic as an auditor, I did not volunteer at any shows, I still don’t drink enough water, and I have not yet shown Prix St. Georges.
Then I realized I was reading my post from the perspective of what I had not accomplished vs. what I had accomplished.
I am riding more consistently and mindfully, I ride in clinics with Verne Batchelder and get video-taped, and I drink water. I have become more conscious of the connection between my emotional and physical health; I try to meditate when I walk the dogs and let the colors of the sky and the chatter of squirrels hiding behind tree trunks fill my brain vs. the constant streaming of thoughts. I make a conscious effort to reach out to friends and make connections beyond my Facebook Home Page. I am trying to become more involved in my community and the world beyond my corner. I am constantly balancing my roles as full-time mom to a house full of teenage girls, part-time secretary, writer, and rider – with the majority of my time appropriated for the role of “Mom”.
This year I am going to start it out with the phrase . . . I am enough.
May we each find the balance of being enough this year.